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Sociology, history and film and Television student at the University Of Glasgow.

In my spare time I take photos.
  • Mood: Worried
  • Listening to: Wax Fang - Majestic
  • Reading: The Blood Of Crows by Caro Ramsay
  • Watching: Grave Encounters 2 (shit film)
  • Playing: Jet Velocity 3D
  • Eating: Chocolate brownies
  • Drinking: Vanilla Fridge Milkshake

Doing my Highers...

History on the 14th May.
English on the 20th May.
Geography on the 30th May.
Religious and Moral Education on the 3rd June.

I'm very worried and stressed about them so wish me luck.

On the 6th June, three days after my last exam, I am going to a summer school at Glasgow. The most prestigious University in Scotland and the 5th in the UK. If I go to this summer school they will reduce the grades I need to get in by two. I'm hoping to do a combined honours in World Cinema, Sociology and Geography but at the summer school I can only do World Cinema and Sociology. Looking forward to it.

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DreamsphereINC 6 days ago  Student General Artist…

I would personally like to applaude you for putting up with Zane for that long. I tried, but he is so far up his ass that there's no getting to that guy. Just wait until he dies off like Fred Phelps did recently, they can burn together is the mediocre hell they believe so dearly in. 

You, however, can have a pat on the back, and a night with your favourite show/beverage/snack food.

Treat yourself, for now being a psycotic fundamentalist.
Insanity123 5 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
I don't understand. You applaud me, but then say I am a "psycotic fundamentalist".
DreamsphereINC 5 days ago  Student General Artist
Oh, sorry I meant "not." My apologies, really.

I'm on an iPad so the auto correct is insane
DemonLurch Apr 6, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
You sent me such a pissy message on facebook and then block me before I could say anything back. Why not just take me off your friends list and move on. Had to get the last word in?

Grow up, Gwen. For fuck's sack.
Insanity123 Apr 7, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I don't want a friend who will so carelessly bring up somebodies tragic life events because they got into an argument with them, no matter how heated. It's not because I wanted to be mean Kyle. You just aren't worth the time to me anymore and I thought you at least deserved a recognition before I took you off my friends list. The truth is Kyle, I don't want a friend like you. I don't want a friend who could so carelessly bring up tragic events in somebodies life because they got into an argument. There have been a lot of shitty things that have happened in your past Kyle, but no matter how pissed off I got at you I'd never open up those wounds. I thought this was a sort of universal mutual agreement between friends but I guess not. I don't know, maybe its just a cultural thing for you Americans to act like macho assholes. So you see Kyle, the reason I don't want to friends with you is because I'm afraid that if I told you anything in confidence, that may one day use it against me. I think that's a good reason to not be friends with somebody don't you? But I knew if I gave you this reason you'd bitch like you're doing right now and I don't like this bullshit drama Kyle. I really don't. Frankly Kyle, I think a lot of people have jumped shit with you because are a bit of a chronic asshole and there are plenty of instances of you being an asshole that I can point to, that shit you pulled with Amy being just one of them. I'm not the one that needs to grow up honey, it's you. But for you Kyle, I'll let you have the last words, I'll let you send me a little message of your own in reply to this, saying what ever the hell you want. Then I will not reply to it. I will block you and never think about your existence ever again.
DemonLurch Apr 7, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
You recognize that I wasn't the one who brought up anyone's tragic past, right? For the record I do feel like I know bits of your past and your struggles that you wouldn't want others to know and regardless of how pissed I was at you I would never throw it in your face. Maybe you've forgotten just how much you've told me over the years. Just because a friend of mine said some very hurtful things - and I acknowledge that it's wrong and he shouldn't have done it- doesn't mean I would do that. Also it doesn't make him a bad person. I know TJ personally. I've spend time with him. He's a very sweet, kind and gentle guy. Yes. He made a mistake. But we've all made mistakes. Surely you can watch his videos and know that he never actually meant what he said. Chop it up to poor impulse control, or whatever you want to. But he's not a bad guy. And what you did to him on facebook was just as evil as what he said to that stupid feminist bitch and deep down in your heart I think you know that. I do need to grow up. No denying that. And yeah, maybe you can dig up my past with Amy and point the finger at me for walking away from a relationship that was already dying. But there's a lot of things you and nobody else knew about what Amy and I had. Back then I was an open book on how fucked up my head was, but I never shared Amy's flaws outwardly - namely out of respect for her. She was compulsive liar who kept me away from friends and family by threatening to kill herself several times during our relationship. She would put bruises and cuts on her body if I did something she didn't like. I did care about Amy. For her I stopped talking to people that I'd known for years because they made her "uncomfortable". I realized I wasn't in love with her a long time before we broke up. What we had was toxic. I was scared to leave her because she was still my best friend and frankly I believed that she really would kill herself if I left. She had me convinced that if I told someone about her issues that she'd kill herself. It was all wrong. And, yes. You're right. I was an asshole and I openly admit I made a lot of mistakes in that relationship. It was my first serious relationship though. You know that I was a very damaged and jaded person then. Maybe you think I still am. We had an open relationship and I fell in love with someone else. Didn't plan it, but it happened. In a nutshell a lot of shitty things happened in that relationship. It wasn't all on me though. My only regret with that relationship is that I allowed her to brainwash me and didn't end it sooner.

You can think of me what you like. To be honest it hurts me that you'd bring up Amy and my fuck ups. I wouldn't do that shit to you. It hurts me even more that I've lost you as a friend and that I never knew you thought I was an asshole all this time. Guess it's nice of you to shed some light on how you've really seen me for all these years before you block me out of your life. I don't apologize for taking TJ's side. He's a much better friend than you've proven to be these last few days. I truly wish this could have ended differently.

I wish you all the best, Gwen.
Insanity123 Apr 7, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
You know Kyle, I am going to reply to you because I think you at least deserve that. I don't think you're a bad person Kyle but I think you are incredibly immature and I don't wish this ended differently, you're not a very good friend and I think a lot of people have seen that. Firstly, it hurts your feeling to have Amy brought up? Well it hurts my feelings to be ganged up on by you, TJ and a bunch of your friends because I have the oh-so-crazy opinion that mocking rape victims is cruel and repugnant. It also hurts my feelings for you to suggest that TJ mocking a rape victim is anything like what I said to him.

How is it similar Kyle? How is calling somebody a cretin or repugnant the same as saying "I think we should give the guy who raped you a medal" How are they at all similar? Don't you dare compare a small argument and name calling that I did to TJ did to that rape victim. That's an absolutely ridiculous comparison to make. I never mocked anything in his past. I pointed out the hypocrisy's of his arguments. That he thinks its okay to mock the suicide of the sibling of somebody who bullied him when he was ten but it's not okay for the people who he bullied in high school (of that he has admitted) to drench up his personal tragedies? That's hypocrisy at it's greatest. And if you really think that ANYTHING I said to TJ is as bad as saying "I'm pretty sure I could rape you without getting killed if it was really on my agenda. I mean you didn't kill the first guy right?". If you really think that anything I said is as bad as that, then you really are a fucking idiot Kyle and I mean that from the bottom of my heart.
So you see Kyle. You said that if you were TJ you wouldn't have apologised either. You make excuse after excuse for him and I just don't want to be friends with somebody who thinks that mocking tragedies is no big deal. How can I trust you not to drench up tragedies in my past when you see that as no real big deal? I don't 100% trust you not to do that and that's why we just cant be friends. Nothing personal Kyle. Like I said, I don't think you're a bad guy, I just think you're an immature guy and your bad traits outweigh your good ones. I'm not going to say anymore about your relationship with Amy and I never really mentioned it when it happened because it was personal business and none of my concern. But like I said Kyle, I think that incident really showed a lot of people what kind of person you really are and I think that's a big reason why people jumped ship and stopped watching. I'm not saying Amy was totally innocent. I'm just saying your immaturity was demonstrated through the end of that relationship. I'm not pointing fingers at you for "walking away from a relationship that was dying", clearly it was a relationship that wasn't working and needed to end. I'm pointing fingers as to how poorly you handled that relationship and that crap that you did with Skylar near the end of that relationship. So you can drop the "I'm so innocent, Amy was the bad guy" act.

Honestly Kyle I think you have a dysfunctional life. I never really told you all that much about my life, you never seemed interested really. I discussed my gender dysphia but nothing else really and I am glad because like I said, I don't 100% trust you not to use them against me. Maybe that's just how people act in Kentucky. But in my life people have a little more respect as to not act like drenching up somebodies personal tragedies, real fucking tragedies like rape, or PTSD, or suicide, or death, is just a little tiny mistake and on the same wave pattern as calling somebody a cretin. If you go around acting as immature as you do now then you aren't going to live a very happy life Kyle, . And that's all there is really Kyle. I wish you all the best too but I doubt good times will come your way if you continue to act the way you do now.
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BloodyDary Feb 6, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
Thanks for the fav!!
Mizth Jan 10, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you so much for faving my work!! :woohoo: :):)
Ellke Jan 4, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks for the fav ! =)
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